I was told by this girl that this dude had hiv, and she got it from him. She also said to watch out. It just so happens that i started hanging out with that same guy. I made sure he used condoms but then one day it broke, so i started freaking out. i even tryed to stick a jalopeno in my private...LOL........thinking it would work. He says he doesn't have hiv. then next thing you know he says its been seven years and that he would be dead by now if he had it, but i heard that you can live 10 years without being sick. I wish he would have just been truthful cause if he wants true love theyre gunna love him despite having hiv. i guess he never got tested and is guessing he has it from a girl he did it with 7 years ago. there even came atime when he got mad and puched his window and started bleeding everywhere i happened to have kind of a scrape on my hand and his blood came into contact with it and i started freaking out again cause i guess i didn't remember the condom broke last time i thought man i have hiv now, with both of those incidents. even though i could have caught it when the condem broke i was still freaking out when the blood thing happened...weird!......i so totally regret my plans were to not have sex with him i dont know what i was thinking i never evened liked him in the first place. but anyway we are not together anymore.. but when i was with him i decided to just go ahead and have unprotected sex with him.. i dont know what i was thinking. i was like crazy .like i was helping someone but really i guess i was making things worse cause now i may have it and might give it to o other people on accident like what happened to me. i just hope to God i miracally dont have it cause i never got my test results back and i dont know if i have it. i was reading sunnysgirl message and she found out she had it. im scared for the same thing to happen to me. i was hoping she wouldnt be positive cause that would give hope for me but idk i guess its posible to not have it man im gunna pray to god i dont have it and i ask you to pray for me too cause id be so happy if i didnt have it alot of worries would get off my chest.even though life is unfair and hard in the first place. it would make me happy to not have it. just pray for me that i dont have it and ill pray and ill respond with my results cause its been 6 months since weve been together ill be back to let yall know if i have it or not within a few weeks. but even if im negative i heard that sometimes it wont show in your system for ten years i hope thats me cause at least ill think i dont have it for ten years lol
but any ways i know if my sister was still here i wouldnt have made the decision te go with him with my sisters support and encouragement to find someone better.
any ways i think im talking tomuch.....if anyone out there doesnt have hiv even though they had sex with a positive person many times please let me know cause that would give me hope that i too dont have it.. its just to good to be true that that would happen i guess its differnt for people someone can have sex once and get it and others can have sex hundreds of times and not even get it. i hope thats me i hope some how o dont have it wel any ways i think im talking too much im trying to make a short sentence long or whatever ou call it....love beautiufl89