I'm alone in AZ with no family or friends. My only friend that I lived for was my dog which died 11 days ago and I have been crying more than I have durning my lifetime. I feel so bad I think I might ask my doctor to commit me. I can't stay where I'm at because of so many reasons, and when I go somewhere I will be alone no matter where I go. I'm 62 years old and I feel like I am going drop dead any day now from a heart break. I am truly a lost soul.

Richard

Hi Richard: The last time you posted you were thinking of checking into the V.A. for help. Most of us were suggesting you see a psychiatrist there in visits as a start. What happened when you went to the V.A.?

I went to the VA and seen my psychiatrist and we agreed that I wanted to be committed because I am lonely because I have no family or real friends in AZ where I live. Now I'm very tired, cry all the time, can't sleep, and my health is taking a turn for the worth so I think now I should be committed for health reasons instead of mental reasons. I feel my grief is killing me and I do want to live.

I am so sorry for you loss. I remeber your previous post and I too feel helpless and alone. I am sad and my grief is killing me since I lost the love of my life. I also feel that the grief is killin me and that someday it will all catch up to me. All I can do is empathize with you. It is hard and life is so unfair in that respect you are not alone.

QP

Richard, my heart goes out to you...I am 64 years old, male...living with my two sons, 29 and 39. The thirty-nine year old has serious medical problems and therefore cannot afford to live on his own...the twenty-nine year old has university education but seems to be just stuck in a loop...enough of my family..

Even though I have family around me, I lost my wife sixteen years ago so I know loneliness. I know the feeling of going out to the mall etc and just being alone...it is terrible...I try to think of ways I could get my life on track..seems I am going further and further in to debt etc...
I also get the feeling that I am going to suffer a heart attack....of course the way we feel mentally has affected our health..

What about getting another dog...there are so many out there that need homes and even though I do not have one I know how great a companion they can be...dogs are so smart..
if you could find another one to replace the one you lost...you know how much he/she was in your life...another one of course would open up a whole new world to you and to him...as you know when a dog attaches himself to you it is with unconditional love...

You say you are alone in AZ...not quite sure what you mean by AZ

How were you doing before the death of your dog? People should not have to be alone in this world but I know how hard it is to just go out and fit in somewhere...I have problems with that..so I am searching for away to make my life more enjoyable...of course I am at a dead end right now...

You could say I have my sons in my life but my wish is that they were on their own doing well.
I also have another son a twelve year old with my second wife whom I am separated from...We were good friends up to a few days ago when the shit hit the fan and now I face another dilemma with her...when my late wife and I were together the world was golden...we had each other, since she died it is as if she took the color out of the world or the music out of my life...

Maybe we can help each other find a way out of this mess...I know I would like to stop feeling lonely all the time..I've taken up reading...I work parttime..these things help..but there has to be other things I could do....keep in touch Richard....

I’m very sensitive to other people’s pain. When I read, hear, on TV and the rest of the world and their problems and suffering I just want to cry and think that I’m just a winner because there are so many people worst off than I am. I would like to volunteer to help people that are worse off than I am and maybe that would give me some feel of worth. However I am in a lot of pain and I would have to get a lot better before I could really help someone else. Thanks again for your suppose.
Richard

We can all get lonely even when surrounded by family or friends..but being truly alone where you don't even have family or friends around is SO awful. I went through that for months after I first moved out here and that was the first time I called the suicide hotline. No one should have to be so alone in a world overflooding with people. My heart goes out to you. I don't know your whole story..Are there neighbors you could try to be-friend? Social clubs or churches you could join?

By AZ, he means Arizona. I'm alone in Arizona too, but it is a beautiful state and I had the quail in my patio one day, and the two gecko little lizards are always up and down my concrete patio walls. The sunsets are dazzling. The native plants are incredible.

Richard,

Each of us is never alone. There is always someone; we just might not know it at the time. The grieving process is different for everyone. If you do not have any hobby or interest, it is easy for your thoughts to stay hooked on the negative rather than looking for the lighter side. It would be okay for you to look for another companion/dog. There are dogs out there that need a friend like you that appreciates him/her. Your new companion will be different than your last; that is the way it is supposed to be in my limited opinion. Why don't you give it a try?

Richard I feel for you. Depression is a terrible thing to deal with and unless you have experienced it you do not understand. You don't have to feel alone. There are a lot of people in your shoes as they say. My depression has been worse since I lost my job in July and believe me I understand. I know loosing your pet has been hard on you I have a small dog that I love too but maybe you will come to think about getting a new pet. There are so many cats and dogs that need the kind of love you can give. Just a suggestion. My name is Beverly and I am new to this board but you have really touched me deeply. Please keep your faith sometimes that is all we have. I will look for you and I will pray for you.