I am severly depressed, my mother attempted suicide a week ago, my brother was nearly beaten to death by a childhood friend a month ago, my daughter almost died from pneumonia, my dr is ignoring my own personal health concerns (lymphatic problems in my neck and jaw) I have been out of my ADD meds for almost a week and they are not returning my calls. I am on the verge of being kicked out of my college for missed time. I feel like I am loosing my mind. I tried to call to see a psychiatrist, but most places are closed right now. I have just had it at this point. All I can do is cry. even 20mg of valium isn't helping. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I really don't know what to do anymore.

Talk to someone right away by calling below and don't wait to get into a psychiatrist (this is the post at the top of the board):

Here is the tollfree number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline in the US:

1-800-273-TALK (8255) or call 911

In the UK: HopeLine UK: 0870 170 4000 or call your emergency number equivalent to 911 (I think it's 999 there)

Also, here are some really good websites for discussion, information and help.

* http://www.suicideinfo.ca/ (in Canada) This site also has a quick-link to phone numbers of all the Crisis Centres in the country.

* http://www.yellowribbon.org/ (US, teen suicide prevention experts)

* http://www.save.org/ (Suicide Awareness Voices of Education)

* http://www.papyrus-uk.org/ (in the UK) Prevention of Youth Suicide

* http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org From their website: "The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in suicidal crisis. If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK (8255). You will be routed to the closest possible crisis center in your area.

With over 120 crisis centers across the country, our mission is to provide immediate assistance to anyone seeking mental health services. Call for yourself, or someone you care about. Your call is free and confidential.

Para obtener asistencia en español durante las 24 horas, llame al 1-888-628-9454

Why should I call the Lifeline? From immediate suicidal crisis to information about mental health, crisis centers in our network are equipped to take a wide range of calls. Some of the reasons to call 1-800-273-TALK are listed below. - Call to speak with someone who cares - Call if you feel you might be in danger of hurting yourself - Call to find referrals to mental health services in your area - Call to speak to a crisis worker about someone you're concerned about."

I was going to suggest you go to your local ER and check in for an evaluation but Cat Doc has given you some excellent resources. There is help out there and you need it. Too much for one person to deal with, and all at once.

Let us know how you make out.

I know that things are not looking good right now, but think of it this way...you have your daughter! They are on the mend. Thank the good Lord. Double up on your Valium. It will not hurt you. At least until you can get to see someone. If you are having these thoughts, PLEASE, go somewhere right away. To an ER. Anywhere. Call your DR and tell them. They will not turn you away. You can do it. Life is funny. As quickly as it turns "bad", it can turn "good" again. You care. You can not do this to your daughter. You are seeking help. Run and find it. Good luck and check back in. 1/2