Hi Everyone:

It's a cool and rainy night here, the kind of weather that makes you want to curl up in bed and watch movies with someone special. Of course I haven't been doing that, too much work and school, kids and housework. sigh.

I have been having a LOT of anxiety lately and I have realized that whatever relationship I am in at the time has a lot to do with my moods. His mood or behavior has way too much effect on mine. So, I am going to make an effort to focus more on things I have some control over and that bring me joy...and less on him. Just identifying and saying to myself I don't need him in my life to make me happy....that has helped me feel more in control of my personal life.

Hope my friends here on the board are doing well. Check in and tell me what you have been up to :0)

[This Message was Edited on 10/28/2009]

After a very depressive weekend & staying by his side for my 4 days off, because he works nights & me, days...he went off with a friend for a day. So, I took a ride up to a state park & went walking, praying, etc. So peaceful to hear/see the leaves falling to the ground & gave me a new perspective. I DON'T ALWAYS NEED HIM WITH ME!! Although I already knew this, I stay around because he likes to have me around...well, I also plan to focus more on what makes ME happy! Take care & enjoy!!