one's mind plays strange games, but this time it isnt alzheimers:-) or a senior moment.

For those of you with siblings a few years younger than you, can you recall your mother being pregnant? Do you recall the new baby in the house? Can you picture your mother holding that infant? Do you have any memories of playing with your sibling, as a toddler? Going anywhere, visiting places? I have vivid memories of my father taking me places, going to summer camp, school, but my sister wasnt ever there.

I know people have these memories, because my own children can recall one another in scenes, games and events that I, as their mother, dont even remember! PLus we have photos, there isnt a single photo of my mother pregnant with either me or my sister. I have a birth certificate, but who knows....there are no childhood photos of my sister. The earliest ones start around age 3-4.

I cant do anything other whatever the truth is, but it would greatly put to rest the feeling that I've blocked out something odd that happened in my family. My sister and I are total strangers, we haven't spoken since she was 11 or12 and she moved out at 14. I saw her for a few days when our mother was dying and I see her on Facebook now with some very famous people listed as 'friends'...I'm thinking on what side of the twilight zone have all these lies happened? She told my mother for 30 yrs she was broke, living alone and broke our mothers heart staying away. I think shes physically back in NY or maybe was here all the time and never said anything because she didnt want to help with the care taking. I never asked her for anything because I'm the older sister, but she didnt even want a sister.

I've resigned myself to it, but just as I did these thoughts come up, maybe I had buried them afriad to find the truth for many years.

remember telling my class that my mom was going to have another baby and I clearly remember when we found out, from a call from the hospital, that it was a boy. I remember him sleeping in his crib and playing with him as a toddler. I was 8 when he was born, though, so was old enough to remember. I also remember bits and pieces growing up. When our dog had puppies, when my mom's ex husband came over to pick up my older brothers....Christmas, vacations etc.

I know you're asking something different. I'm the baby. I don't have many memories of my older siblings as a tiny girl, but I have memories from a VERY young age, some less than 18 months. I know because I have told my parents things and they said "yes - that happened and we lived on....." We moved from that house before I was two. I also remember sweeping wood floors with a play broom in our new house (2 yrs old) thought that was something I made up because we had carpeting. Mom said no, we had wood floors when we moved in.
I also remember being so small that I had to sit down to get out the front door (and having the screen door slam on my shins) I'm sure my brother opened it and then let it go. =)

None of my memories are from photos either. The only tragic memory I have is when I got my front teeth slammed into the top of my mouth at about 14 months. I do remember laying on the ground crying and my Mom running out the back door.

Now my short term memory stinks. Go figure.

I'd be interested in people's reactions when they found out a younger sibling was coming. My son was VERY upset when he found out I was pregnant with my second child. If people said anything, he'd look at me and say "No, you're not having a baby are you? I will love you enough for two" He was 4. Heartbreaking!

I am sorry if I changed the subject from your original post! I think early memories are very interesting. I hope others answer YOUR question. =)
JL

You say you've resigned yourself to it - but do you have any desire to have any contact with your sister? Not wanting a sister when you're little, doesn't mean people never want a sister in their lives. Obviously she hasn't made any effort, but would you ever?

My younger brother was born in 1965. I in 1962. That would make me three years something
months. But i remember clearly him being born. Lots of blood. But not much fuss from mom. Dad was the midwife. They both were very young. Early twenties. Very matter of fact. No panicking.
Nothing. I dont know why both my elder bro and i were allowed into the room. My parents allowed
us to do anything. Prob thats why. There was this huge wail and this bloody lil baby just flew out.
Dad held him, cut the umbilical cord and i remember Mom asking him for another sheet because the one was all wet.

I remember him being bathed as a toddler. He had the sweetest softest feet.

I do remember one time when being held by mom and us looking into the mirror and my elder
brother and mom laughing at me. I had some mucus in my eye. No sign of my younger brother
and so he prob wasnt around at all. I cant for the life of me remember my moms mom who they said died when i was about 2. But piles of photos. My grandpa was a photo addict. Those black and white and copper toned ones.

It really is intriguing about your memory block. Also the way sis just upped and left at such a young age and never turned back. Looks like there was no emotion at all.

You said your mother wasnt very loving in the conventional way, so do you think your sister
went off because she didnt feel wanted?

This younger brother of mine is so dysfunctional and pathologically selfish, and now it seems
his wife and daughter are the same. I would be happy if they went off and never had anything
to do with me again.

God Bless