Bad Heart

i had congestive heart failure may of 2005 i flat line twice i wish they had just let me expire i've been depressed ever since with no meds for depression heart failure really sucks you can't have a sex life cause you get chest disconfort its not like a heart attack where you can almost go back to normal i just can't afford any more pills i take 4 pills in the morning and 4 at night once a week i get so sick from all the pills i barf no use telling the doctor they'll will just give you more pills my heart is dead on the bottom but blood passes through iti have arteries 40% 60% and 100 % blocked i guess if i were rich they would be cleared 1 artery has 4 stints in it .i wish the president would pass a bill for people that have bad hearts that don't have to pay co-pays my doctor i pay 20 the heart doctor i have to pay 30 and all the test cost anywhere from 30-150 some times i go without food so i can go to the doctors but the cat always has food i make sure of that just because i'm sick he shouldn't have to suffer for it i wish my scripts were free then i might be able to afford 1 football ticket a year i haven't been able to buy a ticket to a Eagles game in four years the doctors rather keep you sick so they can take your money and keep you sick my artery that is 60% blocked he told me i had a 50\50 chance i would die if they tried to clear the main artery so every night i go to bed i know that 1 night i won't be waking up anymore cause nobody wants to operate on me so every day i go to work and do my job the go home and just watch tv i can't have fun like i used to well thanks for listening to my problems